So it is 2am and I am still awake. I think I successfully watched nearly four different movies all in a row today. I’ve never done that. This is what happens when I get really anxious for things to happen.

I’m waiting on work to get me on the schedule and they are taking their jolly time with it, all the while, I am entirely broke and have only a week and a half to make 850$! Can I do it?!!!

I have too.

So, I opened a new bank account with Chase and also applied for my very first ever credit card with Chase. My plan is to use the card if I am not able to make my October’s rent and then pay it off immediately. Needless to say, I will be working overtime, gritting my teeth all the way.

But no worries. It’s not like I have anything else to do…yet. First order of business is to save money and work lots.

And that’s exactly what I need to do! If only I could do RIGHT NOW!

So, there you have it. I’m sitting here roaming around the house, taking pictures of horses in the yard, watching a sci-fi, a horror flick, part of a horribly cheesy and stupid porno (I just don’t get how it gets people off, it’s laughable), another horror, and historical drama ALL IN ONE DAY!

Then when I’ve run out of interest in watching anymore movies, I sit here and write…very, very numbly, hoping that I can survive these two weeks.

And, I have too.

Because there’s no turning back. Because I know that if I couldn’t, I would fail myself in everything.

Oh, and did I mention that I did 200 crunches just for the fucking hell of it?

Two more weeks and I’ll be able to breathe again.